Enigmas of Sophomority

Hello humans and aliens.

I'm gladfully back, with thousands of tears.

Yeah damn grades are.. really bad. Really falling.

I myself still arguing with my Alter, Renegade.

Have I told you before that i have an alter ? no ? well her name is Renegade. i pretty much don't know whether renegade is a 'he' or 'she'

for a 'she' she is so boyish --- so i guess renegade is a 'he'

well it don't matter actually. not really important, renegade only shows himself or herself, ah dunno, when i play sort of instrument, drum, to be exact. so the one who plays drum is not Rani but Renegade. Renegade reneges so much. Rebels and Dissents.

So, back to the main topic. I wanted to discuss some enigmas of this sophomore year.

Should I really study or no ? should I really study or just playing while I have some time, for right now, I mean if you're senior, it couldn't possibly to playing around.

Well if I don't study that much, i mean like study study, my grades will fall off, possibly the last. Hm, no lah, not the last. 4 or 5 from the last. It means that i just gonna play around, go to malls, go for a movies, boys, and yeah.

But you know i have something to be maintained, the one and only: my Dignity. with caps D.

see ?

it always goes like this. between two of them, both of them have advantages. aaaarrgggh

This is what my older batches are always advising me :

Junior : No playing around, adapt with others

Sophomore : Playing around more, the rest, just get over it

Senior : No playing around (again), prepare for the worse final exam.

But there was a friend of mine who were advising me like this :

Junior : No playing around, adapt.

Sophomore : Lil' bit playing around, study, you're only an inch away to the senior which leads you to final exam

Senior : Smaller portions of playing around, but you're allowed to play around. and the rest, study study study for the final exam. study moooreee!

AAAAAA school is driving me crazy, and also my sophomoric year